day by day, this feeling are always grow, grow, and i don’t know. there’s a time when i feel like shit. i don’t know where he is or where he go. it suck when you’re waiting for him to reply your message. i know i’m not the typical girl like that, like a possessive or something lyk that. and i know i can’t be like that cause he’s not mine. i don’t know what to do, i just want to fill my lonely, so i talk to you and hope that nobody can see it. god, help me. i know we can never ever ever be together forever. it’s like a guilty pleasure. there’s a different between us, it’s like a huge wall. and i’ll never ever ever pass it. now i’m waiting. it’s suck. i don’t know if he treats somebody else the way he treat me. but you know everything is just sweet.
haluuu i want to share to you ppl hahaha lol whose that read my post. still the same person lyk my previous post. day by day, i feel so comfort with this guy. i’ve shared my life to him. he already know everything about me, so am i. i feel lil bit confuse with him. it always be a part from falling in love, yeah ‘guessing’ and be ‘curious’ haha yeah it’s not a big deal if i just admire him. but it will become a big deal when two person (me and him) fall in love to each others. i don’t understand, we talk about everything almost every day and night. but i don’t know if he do the same to another girl. okay i feel lyk weird now, fall in love with my best friend, guess that if he had the same feeling…. haha that’s so weird. yeaa now i feel so jealous when i got him try to flirt someone on twitter or yea whatever. hahaha lol okay that’s enough from me
haluuu… tonight i feel so…. yeah bad. i’m sorry my english was poor. i hope no one can see this lol. i just want to share my loneliness right now. i just don’t know what to do. i always need something to share, but i don’t want somebody to know that i… haha forget it. once again, i hope no one see this >.<
right now is 2am, i can’t even sleep. y know that i’m waiting for something. yeaaa something. and it’s so awkward. i don’t even know why can i start everything? i mean… this feeling. to this person. someone that i’m not supposed to. i’m in love with the wrong person at wrong time. omg everything goes wrong, haha how can i? and i’m not gonna telling somebody about this in detail, cause it’s so weird. we’re not supposed to.
okayy i’ll give you a clue, i’ve been shared everything u know ‘everything’ bout my life to this person. and know… i should hide this stupid things from this person. then to whom i’ve to tell? i’m the typical person that can’t hide something or i should tell some of my feeling to somebody.
i finally found my hero. lol. i’ve been stuck on someone for bout three years. is it crazy? huh? no? ok. and this shity person come into my life. but no, oficially no. in fact we’ve been know each others for a long time. but suddenly, this shity feeling comes to me. haha ur such a medicine. u bring me a happiness. i don’t even know… is it love? yaa i just know that right now, i need you so bad. i need you all the time, i miss u all day. you made my every day. and the last thing is, we-can’t-never-be-together XOXO
I just need some spirit from youuu hoaahh my moodbooster
Seeeeeelaaaaamaaatttt malaaaammm kaaaaammmmuuu uudaaahhh tiiiduuuurrr yaaaaaaa gooodniiiiteeeeee aaaakkuuu maasssiihhh maaauuuu mmmiiikkkiiirrriiiinn kaaaammmmuuuu dddddduuuulllllluuuuu
Did you ever met/ founded someone that always or maybe often comes to you when they ‘just’ need something from you and after that they just throw you away like everything has done. I dunno it’s just my feeling or my negative sense, but i found some facts that show me and tells to me “yes, he really did”. You may punch his face, throw him away, or do the bad things such as revenge. But, how if that rude person is your crush? You can’t hide, you can close your eyes from the things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart from the things you don’t want to feel. It’s just like you give everythings that he want, he throw you away and you’re fine cause you love him. Isn’t fair right? Really…… I can’t hide my self😓
And tonight i’m not see u hearing the music like usually. I thought that something bad really happened to u. I won’t let anybody hurt you, officially 😥
008/365 by athenability
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.